Wednesday 8 October 2014

{Day 8} Not by Bread Alone

People, it's been a busy month, a busy week ... stressful. Today I'm still going to talk about bread, kind of, but no recipes, no experiments. Today I need bread for my soul. I've been so tired and busy and ... and the introvert that is me is getting tired of interaction with people that aren't my immediate family - whether people in the stores, librarians, strangers on the phone, non-strangers (but acquaintances) on the phone, the thought of upcoming meet-ups with women who are not yet friends but hopefully will be ... Seriously, the panic at that thought of that upcoming meet-up (tomorrow evening), makes my throat tighten and makes me want to cry and hide in a hole. I'm sure I'm not the only one like that but sometimes it feels that way. And then this weekend is Thanksgiving (Canadian of course) and we're going to DH's parents for dinner on Saturday and I love them but it's still interacting with others who aren't immediate family, who I didn't grow up with, who I don't know like my own skin ... and then church on Sunday and teaching Sunday School ... and then hosting Thanksgiving dinner on Monday (which I'm hugely looking forward to but also carries it's own kind of stress) ... and I just want to lock myself up in my room or become a hermit or something ... and maybe have a good cry or two. Oh and did I mention that the 4yo and I watched an episode of Road to Avonlea this afternoon? The episode where Sarah, who already lost her mom also looses her dad too (in an accident at his work). Not easy for a 4yo to handle and not easy for this mama who lost her mama to handle!

And then on top of it all I signed up for this challenge (which, the Dutch pride in me will NOT allow me to quit) and chose bread of all things to be my topic!! What was I thinking?!?!

And I just need bread (sustenance) for this soul of mine. And my DH walks in the door and say, "Jen, pray." Just like that and I'm broken and reminded of God's grace and His strength and I say a quick prayer and look forward to quiet time when the girls are in bed and DH is out with brother-in-law and I can dig into the Word and speak with God and live in peace.

So I read this verse:

Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is notlife more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? ... Matthew 6:25-24


2 comments:

  1. Uncannily enough Matthew 6 was my Bible reading this morning and those very same verses spoke to me!

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    1. That is neat how God works! :) These words have carried me though many days! Thanks for stopping by and commenting!

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